ShardaeMarie
Hi My name is Shardae
Im a singer and a student
Im 21
Thats it! im pretty much boring LMAO
Apr 4th, 2011 @ 2:02 am
The way you make me feel
This is a dangerous love…one that movies and books write of.
You and me fix each other…becoming each others mechanic..i fix u right up with the slightest touch. Make all your aches and pains vanish..putting all the pieces of ur heart back together..not using this as an advantage.
Its like a roller coaster!!! im screaming!! SOMEBOBY LET ME OFF THIS RIDE!
with ever twist and turn my heart sinks…not even gonna mention what it feel like when it takes the plunge!
*BOOM* I swear my heart is gonna jump from my chest.. then finally the ride comes to an all to familiar end. I catch my breath and i fix my hair..ready to embark on that journey once again.
I just dont understand the feeling that i get…its a mix between fear and excitement.
I dont fear the ride, I just fear the end. In an instant i go from the top of the world to the bottom..all over again!
We fuss and we fight but at the end of the night the feelings are there so it must be right..right?
*BOOM* heart is racing just from the thought of u…ur an asshole but i love that about u! makes me want u even more and i just dont know why?
Mar 19th, 2011 @ 3:37 am
Easy to luv u
As i sit here mind going 100 miles per hour..i struggle to find my muse for this piece…Then as if a a lightening bolt hit me thoughts of you fill my mind and the words seem to come seamlessly. Words fitting in place like a jigsaw puzzle. My pen moves with the grace of a dove and the speed of a cheetah. Eyes wide im trying to make out what my beautiful pen is writing out…Im feeling the heat in my hand as it connects with this canvas. having no control i let go..letting that ink take me there…I close my eyes and images of u fill the air..your scent lingering on the edge of my nose…this feeling is climactical..I reach a new height…with no intentions of ever going down!
Then my pen stops….legs quivering…u know the one i get like my after sex twitch…breathing heavy..i look down at the canvas and i cant believe what i see…there wasnt many words at all..just a phase and a heart with an arrow going thru….
ALL IT SAID WAS….
I love you
The End
Apr 17th, 2010 @ 3:59 am
Thinking of my baby
I sit here in silence with a smile upon my face..thinking of YOU
He doesnt know it but just the thought of him makes my blush.
I sit here and think of things like the day we first met and our first kiss.
The crazy things we gotten into and how thru it all i have never stopped loving the man that you are.
You are a man of many things and a man of many talents but the best talent you have is the talent to love me unconditionally.
You take all my problems and make them your own…u wipe away all my fears and you make me stand up for wat i believe in and when i feel the need to sit this fight out…You never let me give up.
Your kindness is unmeasurable. Selfless you are to all that pass u.
Your my dream come true and i thank you for being a part of my life. I LOVE YOU!!!
~ShardaeMarie
Dec 25th, 2009 @ 3:40 am
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MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!
I miss you Micheal :’(
@ 3:36 am
3:19 Xmas Morning
First off i would like to say Merry Xmas!
Its exactly 3:19 in the morning on xmas day and im laying in my bed thinking about him.
I feel like im lost and without the place that my heart once called home. I miss him and long for his warm embrace. The smell of his skin still lingers in the shirt i have of his. i lay in it now as i type.His voice still echoes in my head as i think of our late night conversations on the phone. I’m laying here and the only think that i can think of is him and i wonder why he is still so embedded in my mind. I have removed myself from his life and i have gave up all traces of his existence and yet here he is at 3:19. My previous cry for help did nothing. I feel more useless then ever. No man is attractive to me and no one can catch my eyes. I feel as though i am damaged and there is no repair shop that can fix me. I am BROKEN! he has made his mark and its gonna take sometime to remove it. I just hope it happens soon. I don’t know y i feel this way and i don’t care if i seem vulnerable or weak. Its how i feel and I need to express it in order to move on. I wanna say that I believe in karma but its taking a long time before it comes back around.
Maybe im just……………
Dec 21st, 2009 @ 12:18 am
Can you help me?
In a lot of ways i feel betrayed…but the most obvious emotion is hurt. I wanna say i hate him but without a cause i feel the need to be with him. What does that mean? i have never felt so obviously foolish and stupid to even think for a second of forgiving him. He has hurt me and doesn’t even care. He has lied and cheated..he has manipulated me and made me believe he was something that he has never been. I have loved him unconditionally and was even willing to go to hell and back for him. I have gone thru hell just to get a little piece of heaven..that was never really heaven at all. I have cried many times even to him and yet my tears did nothing. They did not make him see that he was hurting me..making me damaged goods. Like a car that would never run right. he intentionally hurt me! without a thread of true remorse. I feel like i have to come to terms that he has never really loved me. I wanna say that i deserve better but i don’t quite know what that is. i thought he was the better. *I thought he was my prince charming…my everlasting..my meant to be but i guess that is only for fairy tales. I woke up today and the first thing i thought of was him…I wonder if he thinks about me and what he has done..But with no sure sign that he is I know that im the last thing on his mind. It Hurts! To have given everything to the wrong person. The wrong guy…how do i ask for it back? How do i make this void..this emptiness go away? how do i let him go? I want more then anything to forget him..find someone new…someone like my dream guy( Travis McCoy) lol. I have struggled to get to this point where i can confide in my blog. I was embarrassed because i allowed myself to get back to this place the i have written of before. This place of four walls and little air to breathe. A place were i am its only occupant and the four walls are judgmental and negative. I am stuck here until i get answers or i am free from that which is the essence of him. So i ask Can anyone help me?
Oct 27th, 2009 @ 12:22 am
Ive heard that ignorance is bliss
Im tired of the ignorance! OPEN your eyes!! the strength a man is not weight based upon his gun but is weight based upon his actions. The world we live in is Dying! very slowly..Youth is no longer precious and elders are no longer respected. What has happened?
It makes no sense that one should have to fear walking in certain nieghborhoods..Talking to certain ppl and wearing certain clothing. What has happened??
My lil cuzin was shot in the head a few days ago..for no reason. He is only 16 years old…he was graduating this year. He was a good kid. A very kind person and now he is laying in a hospital bed with a bullet thru his head. And i ask you..did putting that gun to his head make u more of a man?
You think that your a man becuz you shot someone who was defenseless?
What makes ppl think that they have the answer to todays youth? There is nothing you can do…You have no power over these THUGS that you like to see as mislead children..What has happen??
I remember growing up it was very uncommon to see a little 5 year old cursing like a sailor.. now i see it everyday. it was uncommon to see guys so out there with their guns but now i see it everyday…It was weird when i seen police chasing someone..now i see it eveyday. What im saying is that my parents shield me from that..now parents are the ones who expose their children to it.
Thats crazy…times has changed! and if we are the future then we dont have much to look forward to right? and if ignorance is bliss then what is plain STUPIDITY!
Oct 18th, 2009 @ 1:58 am
You never put the effort in to the things that really counted
A word here, and a kiss there
Could change the way its turning out
You work so hard at all the things I never really cared about
How hands work & fingers moving, Eyes wide Shut
And baby I’m lonely
Though your right in front of me
You controlled me
That was the girl I used to be
Gave up myself
Well its over now
Oct 17th, 2009 @ 3:28 pm
HAPPY BIRTHDAY EMINEM
Happy birthday to one of the best rappers of all time..
I love his creativity and his mad flow
I support you thru ur ups and your downs….Always know that u got a true fan behind you at all times. happy Birthday EM i hope you enjoy it!
@ 12:46 am
Get the picture?
Can you see it now?
or the picture isn’t clear yet
the one who really cared about you
she is suffering now to forget
take a look on what you did?
watch her she is falling apart
is it her fault?yes it is
she should never give a kid her heart
are you happy now?
she is crying over there
she is hurting herself
the pain she can’t bare
smiling..is this all you can do?
you were messing with her life
why did you give her promises?
that one-day she would be your wife
SO enjoy the view
it might not last
and sooner or later
she will put you in her past
can you see it now?
or the picture isn’t clear yet
the one who used to love you
knowing you she even regret
take a look on what you did?
that naive girl you used all along
she grows up so different now
thanks to you,you made her strong
are you happy now?
she found someone new
who loved her for who she is
she found a man,not a kid like you
crying…is this all you can do?
don’t waste your tears there is no chance
between you and her
there will never be a romance
SO enjoy the view
as it will forever last
she is so over you
you are just a page in her past
